As I sat on my porch sipping my Arabic coffee while blending into its aroma and the cool autumn breeze, I recollected how my morning was a blessing comparatively to the many mornings I have had years ago. The simple act of breathing and existing while being connected in an indescribable way to everything in me and around me ran tingles down to my toes.
I haven’t felt this alive or present until a few years ago. All I knew of me was a shell with an eerie throbbing and vibration that constantly tried to leech off illusionary happiness that only spiralled me into more darkness despite my distressed efforts. I wasn’t this flesh and warm blood with love running through my veins; I was a hollow vessel that rang emptiness.
My ‘Re-birth Philosophy’ is simple, “If you are breathing, you are living.” I call it my ‘Re-birth Philosophy’ as I believe I was born again after my Tantric Journey Healing. So profound it results has been that I need not move mountains or prove any social stigma to feel worthy of my existence. I believe my existence alone is a blessing and the path I have been given is meaningful wherever it is taking me. I have learned to let go and live.
My past wasn’t kind to me and some of the choices I made as a result of my distressing earlier years brought me to a point where I had ceased to exist though I was living. I grew up in an abusive household that was a broken home. I was taught no self-worth. And I had learned I had to earn anything ‘normal’ in a hard way. Opportunities and a better life seemed far away and required so much of effort as many limiting beliefs cowered over me.
I did not understand that it was wrong for me to be in a string of dysfunctional relationships where my partner’s needs were put above mine just to feel that little ounce of love and appreciation. I did not know it was wrong for me to accept those rude jabs of disapproval and sneering in college – and also collect all these public opinions and mend an image of myself I seriously believed and dwelled in. Among these mishaps were many others that had shaped my life.
I could not give myself anything beautiful because I expected it from the outside world. And despite my expectations, what I received was the opposite of what I wanted. What I did not understand then was if I am not prepared to give myself something beautiful I cannot expect it from the outside world. It is an inside out job. If I wanted to respect I needed to make sure I subject myself to respectful situations and if I needed love I needed to remove everything and anything that did not give me love.
And how did I understand this?
I was able to recognize my entire life was an inside out job only after my Tantric Journey Healing called Emotional Detox through Bodywork . As beautifully quoted by the 13th century poet Jalaluddin Rumi, “What you seek is seeking you”, I had Tantric Journey Emotional Detox through Bodywork brought to me for my re-birth.
Our lives are a product of everything that has happened to us. Both good and bad experiences have moulded us into what we are today. What polarity (positive or negative) of these experiences we decide to hold onto gives us the road map on how to co-create our life and future. But sometimes some of these experiences are so profound that they tend to leave an imprint in you. For example, if you experienced an abusive relationship where your partner shot down your abilities; a certain percentage of you will carry his or her abusive notions that subconsciously will play out in your life. Often negative prints tend to stick longer than the positive ones because the current day and age is filled with many gremlins who couldn’t maintain their positive polarity.
The greater amount of negative events that you have experienced is directly proportional to the higher volume of negative cells (with negative emotion and negative energy) in your body; likewise the same applies to positive experiences.
As written by Michael Sky, the renowned author of The Power of Emotions, “All of our emotions manifest as moving (arising, vibrating, gathering, flowing, expanding, boiling) energy. When we have a feeling – any feeling – we experience a tangible movement of vital energy. The energy moving through us comprises the feeling; such energy-in-motion is emotion.”
Therefore taking into consideration that our bodies carry a biological blueprint that is chronologically inclined, it is essential to emotionally detox to live at optimum. It is vital to tune the body into a positive polarity to have a positive life.
The 4 keys of Tantric Journey Emotional Detox through Bodywork are:
“My research has shown me that when emotions are expressed-which is to say that the biochemicals that are the substrate of emotion are flowing freely-all systems are united and made whole. When emotions are repressed, denied, not allowed to be whatever they may be, our network pathways get blocked, stopping the flow of the vital feel-good, unifying chemicals that run both our biology and our behavior.” – Candace Pert
Now I have control over the events that take place in my life and the majority of them are happy ones. In the face of a great struggle I co-create my life by finding the tiny nugget of opportunity that makes my life better. Among gratitude, beautiful loving and fulfilling relationships; I am living my dream.