To have a healing session with Mal is to invite the darkness and shadows of your fear around your body and the feminine, sexual self, into the light. I knew when I heard of his work through Maya F, that his special Yoni Massage was something I wanted to experience. I think I was going through a period of “needing” to be seen by men and recognized as someone to love. Of course it wasn’t happening, as the unspoken signal I was sending out, acted as a deterrent to the right kind of man. I felt pent-up and unsure of the “why’s” surrounding it and seeing Mal was a lucid surrender.
I left a lot of things behind with the decision to see him and I knew even before the healing, that I wanted to experience the session completely. Before I arrived, though, I was feeling shy and even guilty around the idea. I was early for my appointment and he was still working, so I sat on the street corner by a tree and just looked at the sky and waited. Having these moments, gave me time to reflect on what it is I was seeking and why. When he sent a message saying I could come around, I was more relaxed and ready.
As we sat together cross-legged in his sanctuary with candles and music, a calm came over me and I knew that this man could hold me in a place that maybe no man ever had. He was so thorough and trusting and gentle. He asked me if I felt prepared to have the full Yoni Massage and I knew this was the whole reason I was sitting before him–so without hesitating I said ‘yes’. Truly, this was one of the greatest gifts to myself, to have asked for–and to have received. There was never a moment of fear, angst or worry. He explained that he would first work with the whole of my body to do a healing massage and then into the realms of release.
The experience of being with a man who was not your partner, who was not a doctor and yet was working in a healing way with your body that was sensual, but not sexual, was a new kind of extraordinary. It was almost as if Mal was the true definition of a physical therapist for the feminine places we rarely permit ourselves to understand in our every day existence.
I felt held and safe… and completely honoured, in where he was taking me with his healing. With the Yoni Massage, it was as if he returned a part of me to myself. After the healing, I felt strong and pure, in a way. The urgent sense of needing to be seen or touched or kissed or adored by a man, seemed to dissipate. It has been three months and I am still in the feeling of how wondrous this healing was–and I have been seeing a very sensuous man who loves and adores my body and person. I am the most relaxed I have ever been in a physical relationship. I am even surprising myself by the calm I have and the idea of “need” is no longer in my person.
The Yoni Massage with Mal was one of the most valuable reflections and experiences I have ever given myself. I have recommended him to those who are experiencing challenges with their partners or physical/sexual selves. Mal is tender, professional, guiding and kind and the journey he takes you on, is one to yourself. He does this with such integrity and honour. He leaves you with a sense that if you open and release your heart to the darkness of your fears, there is a place for you within it, that will reflect the joy that has been there all along.
My Love and Gratitude to You Mal,